everytime angry also have a slightly reason.
no matter how angry also need some reason to kill me off lol..
after make up the shit hair..
(omg, definitely regret to make tis hair..)
he have a very very bad face, bad attitude, bad all things..
how i ask him, he won answer..
how i hold his hand, he just will pull me off...
ya.. this is the first time i felt it..
he was really angry..
normally.. all the time i thinking what happening..
what is the problem make him very angry..
at the noon time, he trying not to bring me go there as fast as possible..
because the guy was calling very hard to "my phone"...
i think he was realizing...
why did "his fren" was calling me but not him at the moment that he know we are together..
well... i was not think it as a point because... i thought i was thinking too much..
finally, i was delaying my finished time in that saloon with dye of the shit colour.
huh...
ya... it's the second time his anger fire coming up..
initially, he told me not to dye hair in 1 day, because he gonna back to play basketballl..
ya.. i know he like basketball so much..
but when i told them not to dye, that's was too late... the colour had oredy come out...@@
so.. he wait and wait and wait... from the budget time 6 o clock till 7.30pm..
i affect him can't play ball at the time.. i affect him can't meet his fren at that time..
i'm so sorry, i know basketball was important to him..
when reach there was the worst happened..
i am angry too at the moment..
i cant even calm down and think positively..
i walk alone at the dark road to the 212 toilet.. den walk back..
2 times i do tat..
i know when i walk alone, sure i will calm down compare to sit with those guys...
finished that games, he bringing me off so hard..
just something like don't want to see me anymore..
well.. that is a sign of "broken"...
and i was cried and cried, i dono what to do somemore...
sorry to scared his family.. @@
he ask me to gave back all his things, and dun left anythings at my house..
don't i try to ask him why, because he told me why, i will say NO...
better let me think..
finally, i paksa him to wait me go eat together, need to have a talk..
sure, we have ate outside.. On the way, he said that:
better v break as i m not suit u, and many ppl was outside waiting u..
i don't want disturb u anymore, and i will gave back what i had from u..
those sad words, really bad... make me cant even control my tears to drop..
than, he LAUGH...
omg... act again as playing with me...
no matter how...
i know all anger was just come from the word JEALOUS...
he was very very very care on that to me...
means he was very very very care on me..
so.. i will forgive for this "game" and i am still be with him...
as i want, as i hope, as i like, as i love...
please don't try leave me anymore... ><
