Its been long long long ago~
Where am I?
I were lost...
Should I say, again?
Yea, of cause.
That's been too much coming to my head until I couldn't breath, I couldn't move freely, I couldn't even smile happily.
That's too heavy for me.
At least, now, I'm not ready yet for the future that people are looking forward.
Seriously, I like to be alone.
Doing things alone, drinking a cup of coffee alone, sitting infront of my lappie alone.
After a long long busy days, I did really realise that I need my own space the most.
I can give up everything for everyone that I really thought that it should be my everything.
But, I guess I am wrong.
It was so so wrong.
That makes me even pressure than the other day, when I was just a kid to handle an adult's matter.
In conclusion, I'm so lost afterall.
Really don't know who to talk to.
The one nearest to me, may never lend me a hand when I really fell down.
Everything just goes so bad, and worst.
What to do?
That's what we called life.
In anyway, I'm just trying to.... take a break.
I need my own fresh air.
I need a pair of clear ears, to listen to the melodies and musics that I was passionate in depth.
I need a pair of optimistic eyes, to be my best lens best camera, captured down all the beautiful moment.
I need my optimistic mind to give out a right signals to my body to actually stay healthy.
I really know...
What I lose today, I may never get back in future.
Unfortunately, I'm not a genius like you, you, you, and you....
I need spaces to breath.
I need my own spaces to dance.
I need my own spaces to raise my voice and sing.
I did too much because of you.
I did too much just to makes people happy.
In the end, what am I, I never know.
Negativity, is a fatal chronic disease. Once you infected a little of it, you will be losing your whole happy life.
I forget the basic role I have in my mind, in my soul.
What I left now, is an empty heart, blind eyes, cracked ears and a destroyed body.
I really need my own space.
I need freedom.
I need more.
Somemore.
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