Drive Safe

The day once I touched down to Malaysia Airport, I found that my friend has committed into hospital after a serious accident. 

Blessing that, he still able to drop us a message, telling us that he was injured. 

The picture that he sent us, shown that he did involved in a very serious accident. 

Thanks god, he is fine to move and talk. 

Since last Sunday, I yet to have a chance to visit him in the hospital. 

After the company trip, continuously with the separation of a beloved colleague and then my cousin's beautiful and meaningful wedding. 

Running out of energy after all that.

And I have been "Mentally and Physically Shut Down" for more than 12 hours on Monday. 

So, today, there's a chance whereby I able to visit him out. 

The 1st sight, I was shocked. 

HELL YEA, how slim he was before this accident, after that, how can him be so chubby. 

His face was swollen, left eyes with scars and right eyes with big bruce. 

The 2nd sight, I was sad.

He don't really look like him anymore, temporary I guess. 

The 3rd sight, thanks god, he is moving, and smiling. 

As the longer I know him, the more I know about him. 

HE is a guy that will always preparing himself to be looking good in front of everyone. 

His face is the body part that he loves the most.

We might think that he will be quite sad when he look into mirror right now. 

Of cause, doctors will help him up, and he won't be forever looks like this. 

Then, he started to tell us his story. 

It was a bit horror, because he said when he almost reach home, he looked at the flat that not suppose to have people at that hour, were all drying clothes out the corridor. 

After that scene, he "bang" the wall, and he got fainted. 

Don't know at which blur moment, he woke and called his friends, telling them he was in an accident. 

His friends after that told him, when they arrived, they saw him climbing out from the passenger side door, and walk opposite to the road to the friends car. 

However, at that moment, there was a lot of people standing there. 

But surprisingly there are nobody lending a hand to him, or contact ambulance and police. 

This already a very sad phase, then he told us, friends told him, there are 6-7 peoples of MAT REMPIT was picking his cash, bags, wallets and watches. 

Guys, how bad can this world is? 

How cruel can people be? 

I can't imagine that how those people standing there just to look at how's the accident, but don't care about how will the driver be.

It's a life.

A living things.

Really speechless to this cruel world. 

.....

However, there was a lesson my friend learnt, and he did started to warn others:

Please wear your car seat belt whenever you entered your car before you start driving.

"I was so regrets that I did not wear seat belt always, causing me such a heavy injury. The Airbag would not help if you does not wear a seat belt, they are safety tools, please use it. 

I feel so pain whenever I talk, I drink, and I can't even eat now."

HE said.

To all dear drivers, 

Please do your part to secure your own life before anybody come and show you how cruel they are. 

Do your safety part, before you start your journey. 

Best regards,

Missie

Fearness and Marriage

Hi, how are you doing there? 

Time past quite fast right? Just a blink, everything reset back to zero.

I have never feel this complicated before. 

The complication is like a drug.

Because it relies on the beautiful memory, and some bitterness of the separation.

It takes me longer time to digest down the beautiful taste mixed with the bitterness. 

Hey, guess what, that day I attended my cousin's wedding, everything goes smooth and fine. 

Surprisingly, the sweetest melody playing in the hall, everyone's eyeing on the nerdy groom. 

Violin sounds specifically soft and romantic at that moment. 

Just like the whole world have stop and staring at them for quite awhile.  

Cousin's tears drop for just a reason, that called "love".

The thing I will never have in my life. 

At least for that moment, I able to claim very clearly, I might not have it, perhaps not deserves it.

Back to the beautiful romantic's scene, melody stops, the groom running to my cousin. 

Words, we know each other 11 years ago, and we coupling for 9 years, that's the most beautiful moment in my life.

Without you, I wouldn't have my life complete. Love, is you know I'm imperfect, but you still by my sides and giving me courage to improve my every step. 

I were fighting so hard to improve both of us, from we have nothing, to now, we got each other. 

I would like to prove to you that I will make it true, I will make our life beautiful, please let me hold you tide and fly up high. I love you. 

This remind me of something that I never have. 

 This remind me to think about what I really want my future to be. 

God, if you hear this, please send me some responses. 

Dear god, 

Since I was young, I were praying to be good girl in my parents heart. 

Slowly grow up, I were wish to be a kind girl in everybody's eyes. 

I know it is nearly impossible to being kind to everybody, but at least I shouldn't hurt anyone. 

Until I 1st met what the people called LOVE. 

It suppose to be beautiful.

But it will just happen when the 2 persons that in love having the common thinking and similar mindset. 

Because of LOVE, we changed for each other. 

He taught me to be not too optimistic, because bad things happen you may not able to handle it;

He taught me there are nothing  best in the world, there are merely something might good for some people some situation. 

To be smart, to be careful, to be good. 

But when LOVE slowly comes to a few years later, changes will happen. 

To be good, might not be sufficient anymore. 

We need to be better, at least for both. 

Until the day, both us agreed to live together forever.

My brain got stucked here. 

My tears dropped. 

It's because I don't deserves he do anything better to me, so he never think that it will be very important to us. 

The question he asked me back was that, why not you give me what you have, and we improve. 

Confusing and interesting.

I don't understand, since when we have different thinking, different mindset. 

God, please tell me since when. 

I just can't stop the tears. 

Kindly guide me that what should I do to really get myself back. 

I dont want to lose myself in a relationship. 

That's not the real me. 

I need courages!

But, I dont have. 

Hope that you're here god, at least you will guide me to a better solution. 

The End

这么久没回来，一回来即便不是喜事，一定会是令人心酸的事。

越是长大，越是经不起悲欢离别。 

相继地，一路走来都十分愉快的同事一个个离开了。

面对分离，我始终有种极度不舍的感觉。 

尤其是特别好的那几位。

我说人啊，怎么都那么犯贱。 

不到真的离别，也不会低头说谢谢，说对不起，说我爱你。 

或许老天就是这样地考验我们，让我们不断地成长，不断地学会勇敢。 

最近身边发生了一些让我们十分感触的事情。 

能让人感触那么深，也当然是件极为悲痛的事。

前两个星期，大嫂去参加了一位好朋友的婚礼，他们的婚礼完美而又愉悦。

随后，他们便到马尔代夫度蜜月去了。

第一天，他们甜蜜地展开了旅程。这个地方是女孩非常期待着要去的地方。 

男孩为了实现女孩的梦想，不断努力地工作。

终于他们来到了梦想的地方。 

可是天意弄人，在一天的浮潜中，男孩要女孩在船上等着，他就随大家下海去了。

谁知道，浮潜完毕后，所有人都回到船上，仅剩男孩一人还未上来。

女孩才急了的找老公，怎么没上船。

这下才发现男孩溺毙了。

船上刚好有医生护士，可是一切都来不及了。

怎么的？才刚刚喜结连理，这么快就让一切成灰。

我说我们听者都觉得心酸，能怎么让女孩不痛心，不难过，不放弃自己呢？

我说老天跟他们开了一个很大的玩笑。

在一起九年后的他们仍幸福地结婚，可却在几分钟带走了甜蜜的回忆。

要是发生在我身上，我可真不知道该怎么面对。 

在我梦想要到的地方，老天带走了我一生的幸福。

叫我怎么能原谅自己？

我想当下的我一定也想寻死去的。

可是人生还漫长，老天带走了他必定有它的苦衷。

而留下了我，也一定有它的原因。

有时候，难过真的会让人生不如死。可是学会跟难过共处，学会跟悲伤起舞，学会跟回忆交流，我想才会真正让人学会更努力生活。

在天堂的他，一定无时无刻都守护着她。 爱，永远都在。

就像即将离别的我们，我会永远守着承诺，活得比以前更好，无时无刻地守护他，悼念着我们的美丽回忆。

谢谢你。=）