The Hunger Game

Counting on to Day 7 of the program. 

Not sure if the beginning of the program is to lose weight first or not, but I constantly starving. 

I noticed that the workouts given was not as easy as it looks, and the number of sets hit me hard. 

Usually when I do it myself, I will stop it when it hit 3 sets. 

Here comes the time that I should follow the instructions and make sure I bite my tongue and finish it. 

So yea, I burnt more calories than usual. 

Something new to learn here, workouts should not be more than 3 days continuously. 

Basically 3 hardcore days are the maximum. 

Well, now only I get why people would plan their workouts and meal prep on that particular day. 

God knows we need proper rest to gain properly, so the rest day will be just nice. 

I kinda cheated on my cardio yesterday. 

I think I was suppose to keep it low and slow. 

But I love outdoor so much and I just can't slow myself, but to keep going. 

There and then, I regret what I did. 

Maybe I was over burning during my cardio workouts, I was starving since last night (and I am hungry now again!) 

I even had bad dreams and very poor sleep last night.

Oh damn! Now I know what's the consequences like. 

I do feels like I need to eat more, but I have to follow the plan!

Dilemma! 

Anyway, if the beginning of the program is to shred some fats, then it could be useful. 

I gotta hang in here for awhile, let's see how would the 1st stage result be! 

Keep going! Keep moving!

 

Let's start the engine!

It's been so long from the last post. 

I have been giving most of my time to my works and career for the past 2 years, it's finally come to a time that I could focus on me, myself. 

Overlooking myself isn't a good thing. It was negative, depressing, self doubting etc. 

Along the way, I learn so hard to make up a healthy lifestyles to keep myself positive. 

After all the office politics happened for the past 2 years, I am glad that I am finally out of the toxic scene. 

Aside from works, I think I get to grew from small girl who doesn't care about how much savings I have or what should I get to prove that I am good and better to a woman who think about spending wise and living well. 

Thanks to the man that I met and get into relationship with 5 years ago. 

We are 2 individuals with very different personality and family background, and I guess I learnt very different perspectives from him. 

It was good to have someone that willing to listen, willing to hug you when you burst into tears, willing to smack your head a little when you are not at right point. It makes things get better and easier in this relationship. 

He is a very special person, who doesn't care much about proving himself to anybody, but to focus on what makes him and the one he loves feel good or comfortable and happy. 

I admired him as he is so simple and straightforward, although that means nearly no romantic, but I guess it is sustainable. 

I am also grateful that I have attended a couple of personal improvement programs, that prepared me for the life changes, challenges, and being open to accept feedbacks. That grounded me strongly and I will easily surrender to myself or something that I couldn't change, but I will also hardly surrender to the challenges I have. Ya, keep learning. Be open to learn again!

So, since I have some comfortable good time now, I have taken some free online courses about nutritions. Learning the basic nutritions, differentiate the myst and the facts, and share my findings with my family and so they have a chance to get to know what is right and what is not. 

I have this nutritionist dream since young. I love to eat and I would like to eat healthy! There you go! Then, here comes a time that I saw a fitness trainer, who have an amazing testimonials posted online. I was wondering, what makes the results so obvious? I have been looking into nutritions or diet and some weight training for about 5 years time now, but why no obvious result so far? Maybe it's time to learn new things to get what I want in my life. 

Here I am! 

Spoken to the trainer, understand about how the program works, and there I started mine. 

I started the program on 13/03/23, Monday. 

I understand how people see these as obsession, because you have to measure every single food that you are going to put into your mouth. 

On the other hand, these are all discipline. I gotta prepare my daily meals, and have them reheat when I need them. 

People who see these as obsession, they also says reheating foods are unhealthy. 

Haha! It doesn't matter to me anymore. 

When you are into something that you love, and you have invested your money, you wouldn't want to back out. 

Yeah! To be honest, I love myself now. 

A little lack of social life, but that is healthy. 

Why? Because at the age of 33, people you met are all busy with their families and babies. 

Honestly, that makes me feels bad too. 

Its alright, let's get back to your own zone to make sure you achieve what you want! Will be sharing more about the 

Let's get the engine started and let's go! 

Lesson

We only come to realize when we went through some awkward situation or some bad things. 

People normally find life comfort when there is only good things happening always. 

We all have the ability to hypnotize ourselves, to convince ourselves when we repeat the same things.

The past experience did the persuade work, and the emotions take over the rational thinking. 

From time to time, we met different people in life. 

Some people we met at the right time, and we spent precious time together, it probably creates the sweetest memories. 

But, bare in mind, nothing last forever.

The first time being in at meeting for more than 5 hours. 

Together with a group of great people, talking about everything we suppose to be. 

The kindness people in the world, may not look good to everyone. 

But the cruelest people in the world, may not look bad all time. 

In order to recognise and differentiates all of them, we need time and hearts...

Well, its hurt to see all these happen. 

But, of cause, that's a lesson to learn. 

Hope everything is fine. 

I will be fine too. 

Social Network

Something real bad has happened yesterday. 

That was real bad to a so called, closed family. 

What is the source of the arguments? 

The Social Network. 

Not to say which type of social networks we are referring to, we do really have look at nowadays social network user's behavior. 

People are now conservative but believing in such unreasonable sources of information spread in the social network. 

Without thinking about the reality of such information, they blindly follow the trend, share and like the post. 

We do say yes, social network is a useful tool in doing small business and getting the start up well known. 

At the same time, it creates trouble to the society in how to handle the world crisis. 

Look back to the previous cases, crash of a few aircrafts, politicians and some silly news, 

What is the truth of the story? 

Without confirmation from any authority, people starts to spread the untrue information, and then everyone begins to have a behavior to presume. 

There and then, people just stop and stare in front of the computer and devices, non stop putting comments and likes. Do we really think that all these helps. 

For prayer, yes. 

In reality, if a like doesn't meant to a donation, it doesn't help. 

Few months back, someone post a picture, a poor child in Africa, with a few "Thumbs Up". When you see this you will know that meant alot to the current situation. 

The sadness of a useful tool, is misusing and misunderstanding it. 

The biggest lies on our life, is to interpret things through eyes instead of heart. 

Trust, easily lost. 

Relationship, easily break. 

Social Network, is rude when it is no longer being used appropriately. 

Reality

Every time I left the city for awhile...

Without burden, without worries... 

The only "MY" time...

It's the precious time I have with myself. 

This little short escape to the South, a place that I used to be there every year.

The place that I used to be independent and listen to myself.

The place that I met my long long lost friend. 

There is someone in life, you will always remember them.

Although both you did not keep in touch often, although both you never meet each other up. 

Believe it or not, these people appeared and make a little different in your life.

And that makes YOU.

Perhaps, they gave you confident to be live, they lead you the way to sunlight, or they might already gave you themselves authentically.

It's a little hard this time, for me to get back to this reality.

Because I care about that precious time I spent. 

Because I did really hope to see you doing well. 

Because you are always the person that lead me the right way. 

Thank you, and sincerely thanks again!

See you again

"It's been a long day, without you, my friend

  And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

  We've come a long way, from where we begain

  Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again"

A short story to share:

There was a little boy, he was good in study, he was kind in person. 

He respect people, he know where he belongs to since he was young. 

Someone that she will never forget, someone that she pretty sure that he knew he is kind enough to bring him a big life in a big man like him. 

To be apart for like 10 years. 

Every night, she dream to meet him up.

Every morning, she act to be kind as him.

Every year, she make wishes their reunion. 

Every single time she hope that will happen, that doesn't happen. 

Things changed when she met another person that is so called "LOVE".

LOVE is a humor person, always bring her laughter and happiness.

Until the miserable time, she put effort in LOVE, and the hardwork is worth.

One day, a gathering, miracles happened. 

He and she met. 

He changed a lot, he looks a lot more different, but something is remained...

His kindness, his smiles, and his positivity that he brought to the persons surrounding. 

She was too happy that her dream come true, her birthday wishes come true. 

She never forget about him in her life, and all the memories that they spent together.

She not so sure that how special this person is, but she know that he is important enough.

At least, some point of time, during miserable time, he will appeared in her mind and she will stay stronger, tougher, bigger. 

Until they keep in touch, they met up every year when there was a chance. 

During the 3rd time they met, she got to know that he was married few months ago. 

It was a bit sour, indeed, she still know that she will always give fully support to his decision and bless them. 

Time flies, when they met again in another year, many more changes happen to him. 

He lose everything in life, and what he has left, just a stronger him. 

She see strengths in him, his positivity and still his kindness. 

She told him about every single hope she had on him, and she tell him the story about how the chemical works in a person for 10 years. 

True love and love are different. 

True love stays more than a decade.

Love compiling with all habits, hardworks, and hopes to each other.

True love is beautiful but they always not right.

Love is complicating but they always come at the right time. 

He doesn't know how true that the love can be.

She forever have that precious true love in her fairy tale.

Life Changing - New Stage

Life changing in different stages. 

Every stages we walked pass, every milestone we achieved, something that are remarkable in life. 

Left my comfort zone, which is working as an auditor.

Get into a very different field of job.

 First of all, I gotta give myself a round applause, to acknowledge my courageous to taking such a big step further. 

For people who have staying in their comfort zone for years, this is a very difficult decision for them. 

Indeed, me too. 

Unfortunately, I only get to know about the comfort zone after I have been working in the new place for like few weeks. 

In life, there are some places give us opportunities to learn, to grow and to contribute. 

There are also some places give us a stage to perform our show. 

Of cause, there are also places that WANT us to contribute and show ourselves. 

From an auditor to an account administrator, it is very difficult to positioned ourselves. 

At this point of time, I don't see value in myself to this job yet.

In order to do something that you love, you will definitely being motivated. 

Like my old time with audit work. 

But Now, everyday I woke up with a pair heavy eyelids, one piece of heavy body, with no motivation. 

  Whole day long, I worked for more than 9 hours, with nobody see it, no appreciation. 

Whole day long, learning simple things to manage and arrange, and sometimes being scold because of my slow working pace. 

How can people work with motivation with such kind of environment?

When the time I knew the Company is a "youth" style company, I know that there must be very different from my previous firm. 

Because previously we have to be disciplined, and every single step that we took will be taken into account to determine your performance.

Now things changed to be only one word: RESULTS.

Results Results and Results. 

They are talking aboue KPI.

They are talking about being pushy.

They are also talking about fast.

etc.

 

Human being, always get lost when we are in danger. 

CAUTIOUS!

We must know that whats happening is what we created. 

This is the next level of challenges that I am taking. 

I have to learn how to deal with the negativity, the different kind of people and the different way of completing jobs. 

 

 

So, GET UP! and KEEP IT UP!

Everytime when we fell down, we learn different way to stand up, and choose the best to move on.