F e l t B e t t e r . . .

Today i done something and learn somthing...

At least in this week, i DONE SOMETHING!!!...

Already one week of my study week, i still haven touch on my study Matters...

Kept faced pc like hell..

I think facebook had made its own medicine on light..

Whenever u started to play, u might not stop it!

IT IS ADDICTED!!

what the hell..

But luckily, i still have my own work to do..

Dad's company accounting, really a hard job for me as i said before..

Hence, i tried and tried to handle it up...

Yea, finally... i found the way to solved what i DON'T UNDERSTAND...

Here the second time i said this:

"JOB ACCOUNTING is much more different than my STUDIED ACCOUNTING."

And, i got less professional ppl who wants to use their times to teach me..

I need more effort on it...

No1 can either influenced us, except ourself~

Tats such a right phrase..

I love to believe myself, but not others..

I love to go my own ways, without others..

I love to be independent, with my own rights!!

haha...

Mayb its time to turn my lonely mode to the EFFORT MODE..

And tml, i'm going sing k with Darling sister... XIAN~

My lovely singer..

haha... wanna sing with her really bit pressure... since, she have a nice voice...

XD

But anyway.. Have to Enjoy my LIFE ^^

l o n e l y

Recently felt very lonely actually...

Dono what makes be like this...

but it is surely about u...

sigh...

gonna cry because of missing u...

but... its seems like...

u r not...

Better i get study...

still have a chance to met u see u...

The day without ur voice was kinda pity...

Mayb u dono tat...

But i use to say, i love u...

and ..

im DAMNLY MISS U..

what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!

......................................................................

dun treat me like shit anymore, please..

i need ur care...

i need ur love...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

l a z y

Today is the 2nd day of my study week...

i got doing nothing within this 2 days...

kept watch tv, online and play games...

i realized that i'm getting seriously LAZY sick!

Oh my god!

That's not a good sign for me..

Since i still a child, i knew about what the main purpose for me to be HARDWORKING...

But dono why, recently i get lose from those thought!

i cant get back my rational thought...

Why it could be happened?

I din imagine this kind of incident will happened in my life...

Coz tat time i was still a very very SIMPLE...

Dono about branded, dono about important of look, important of love...

Mayb something he said was right...

i'm a EASILY BE INFLUENCED girl..

And what he said was very powerfull to influence me..

sigh..

i got nothing and cant to blame bout it...

Coz i'm the one who choose it..

So... let it be natural...

Just tried to change my stupid lazy attitude!!

Today just kept sleeping...

i slept bout 11hours...

This cant be continue... it has to be change!!!!

S p e n d i n g D a y..

Going to BANKRUPTCY~

oh my godness!

Saturday, last 2 days...

Darling told me he wanna go shopping.. since such some times never go for it ady..

den i was kinda happy at tat moment..

Coz last week he gave me a BIG AEROPLANE... = =

Somehow, i felt weird as he suddenly said to go shopping..

as i noe, he was very lazy recently.. - -" *useless*

And i said wanna go for JOGOYA... he aso flight me an aeroplane.. make me dissapointed as no feel.. T.T *this also caused by someone which last minute inform me not to go* fxxx!

So... he suddenly said wanna go shopping sure have his own purpose...

Dun think he only to accompany me walk around for windows shopping..

Yea, he wanan buy a wallet..

I TOLD HIM, I BOUGHT A NICE WALLET FOR HIM AS HIS BIRTHDAY PRESENT...

but he push off my idea, den ask me to buy a tee..

Den now...*sunday* spending again... = =

luckily, this wallet was not as expensive as TAT MUCH...

hiu~

Really hard to breath... or mayb stop breathing ady when i was clicking out my money from the atm machine! *suffer*

@@

Why girls like shopping? sure is to buy something v love...

yea, i wanna shops for my needs..

but....

Fong come with us...

I got no chance to go in woman's wear... coz i felt pai seh... ^^

But at least v had done something there..

tat was SUSHI KING!

Well, i admit that i love SUSHI so much.. but of course not to eat too much... coz this few days stomach felt not well, ate too full, felt wanna vomit.. @@

but there nice.. just a problem, THERE ARE FULLY PEOPLE in MID VALLEY SUSHI KING!

Hate the crowd!

They made me blur, made me became low energy... all shops aso at least 5 peoples inside...

So we go there just for SUSHI KING and tat RENOMA WALLET... = =

After that, they go back Midah CC... Boring as well.. *v not playing at tis moment, but sat kez car out for lunch*

This week had go there everyday... Play same games.. So hard to understand why guys love tat...

And so, go basketball court as normal days... After that, ate together with those basketball buddies~ Den go CC AGAIN~

Gonna cried, coz really not suit for me to go every free time....

First, im not pro on LEFT FOR DEAD... not dare to joined them play... *sure kena gao gao*

2nd, i cant stay in a room which is cold and no in and out oxygen...

Thats y i prefer basketball court than CC...

3rd, besides those DOTA, LEFT FOR DEAD... i oni noe to play something IDIOT...

Makes his fren felt im childish as well... sigh..

k, tats too much to write...

lets look some photo:

he matching his new tee with the pants and shoes... *what a CONFIDENT fatty!*

He love to.... Show off... wahaha...

he prefer to see the LIGHTING on his pant... *it called FENOM*

Erm.. still the same way... hahaha... darl is a ben dan... = =

This is what my idea on capturing him... Naturally NICE! EXCELLENT!!!

That day was too many peoples, v need to park our car at the highest stage... 7th floor~

Searching, v got found wrong way to our car parking...

v go an opposite site ady... @@

SMART yeah~ professional photographer~

Still kept walking, i kept capturing...

Yea, i love this the most... without his head... i think tis looks better... XD now it is my phone wall paper! XD

Haha... i love this as well.. look nice...^^v

Boring.. My turn to have a photo~ >< look fat! DAMN!

This is the WALLET RECIEPT... Forgotten to took a photo of the wallet... But nvm... can be add up soon~

SUSHI KIGN reciept.... haha... FONG, haven paid me the amount ya~ RM20!! wahaha

go die la!!!!!

what the fuck!!!!!
i will alwiz remember how u BEAT me tongiht!!!
behave urself!!
i won lose...
forever!!!!!!!!!

R e l a x

What a nice day i had...

just finished the two important things in the same time...

Plt coursework and also the presentation..

what the hell.. im damn fears to face too many ppl..

if all i dono, sure i wont...

but with face to someone i noe.. i will became pai seh.. XD

This is my pattern!

So now had a very relax mood...

Yesterday was a very sad day..

indeed, he had forgotten to contact me at all..

noon call him, no answer;

night called him, no answer;

any msg, no replys...

What the hell he doing actually..

really cant tahan his lazy mote...

@@

lazy to contact me he aos can made it as a reason.. = =

What the.... XXXX...

And today... i saw her again..

wat the sucks...

got a heart to borrow my umbrella for her...

i walk to her... she run away..

i dono is tat really cant see me or wat else..

but its is doesnt matter for me..

i just noe...

i m fucking no mood at tat moment..

went to Mcd alone..

den rain heavy when went back college...

seems like a bad luck day.. @@

den heard more bout the couple..

dono y i very hope they break up..

i noe tats not my business..

but... saw them... i felt they copying me.. = =

haiz..

like shit..

wat the hell feel is this..

fuckking !!!

walao eh, wanna say today relax, but anger somemroe..

hahaha..

nvm... tis is my mind...

i only wrote my mind here...

wish no1 would noe...

coz tis is my secret!><

Sunday... the day kena lie... XD

tot to go shopping but..... @@

h a p p y 2 1 b ii r t h d a y M Y D E A R

12 of July 2009, a very special date for a very important people..

he had his 21st birthday with plenty of surprise and mostly of happiness..

haha..

he was surprise which what i present him.. a card~

looks simply like.. my raw idea bout STREET as the theme of the card!

haha.. kinda funs when i do this.. i use just 2 days time! very very saves!! XD

here they are... ^^

This is the back side of the card...

tot to give it as BRANDED: clot! XD

hehehe... this is his recently dream car..

i wish it would come truth!

HONDA CIVIC TYPE R!

The content of the card...

felt it's look ugly.. dont know why?@@

Front cover with KAWS! i drawn this with a very very low ink marker..

sigh.. seriously not nice at all~ @@

Overall... when he look at this.. he was happy, coz i saw he smile like a STUPID!!!

really wish u be matured and dream might come truth!

The card i gifted him on 12 July 1am something.. din recorded..

but it seems like pull us to be closer..

have his sweet kiss after tat..

Den going to the next day...

After both of us ady came back with those semangat..

v rush to the EDC shop... JUICE..

For his real present from me... CLOT KZK!

When we were on the way going there...

At the path of way, i saw there was many others fashion shop around there..

and.. there were definitely surrounded by RICH ppl!!

This is the CLOT KZK tee tat v bought!

different gender wear it might have different style..

girls can be sexy, and guys can me EXTREMELY SMART!

After tat, v back HIS home to prepared tat night party dinner..

Steamboat as well as BBQ!

i think no one able to seen something called TRADISIONALLY STEAMBOAT...

it is without gas!

hahah..

look at the photo below!

yea.. this is burning before v started..

very nice colour of this fire actually..

but i failed to captured it successfully.. @@

hahaha.. he said wanna took photo with me! >,<

his birthdya cake...

chocolate indulgence...

delicious betul..

but... i think he dono to taste a CAKE! = =

Initially, he not planning to called his frens come around his birthday..

but seems his mum buying too much stuff...

v supposed to cleaned it.. so~ his frens photo is coming up next!XD

Oops~ not everyone was ready ya~ bad camera man~ perhaps woman~ XD

yea..

what a nice photo...

oni me n kiwi looks weird.. XD

omg.. they doing something CHILDISH and STUPID on girls hair!

haha..

luckily, it still considered as FUN..

if not, i think those 3 girls will going to punch those 4 guys! XD

MOU MOU looking somewhere else..

k.. should say i have a nice edit!

haha.. winny beating him..

before blew the candle.. v took more photo!

yea. v waiting such a long time to ate the cake!

kept captured and playing fool makes all of us crazy~

indeed his family too.. XD hahaha...

Treated him some cake!

2 person sharing such a delicious cake!

kinda enjoy!

ahhaha..

Lastly.. tot they will playing so so so so so fool with us..

but they just oni ask us to kiss..

aso not tat kind of italian kiss *deeply kiss*@@

just oni lips with lips~ XD

i wish him all the best come truth!

i will alwiz be with u whenever u felt down, happy or anytime tat u need me to shared with u!

i love u..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY once more!

muaxx!!

气 炸 了 ! ! !

好暴躁，好暴躁..

最近不知道犯了什么毛病，脾气坏得跟只野兽有得比..

只是区区那小事，我居然气得发抖...

第一次那么气且没办法发泄...

他在很久以前是我眼里有独特想法的人...

跟着时间的流逝...我看见更内心深处的他...

我想连我自己也没有想过会有那样的念头...

或许我知道这"事情"持续下去的严重性...

他让我从他身上学会独立，学会不撒娇，不好浪漫，不依赖，不发白日梦...

让我知道成熟，女人，职务的重要...

可是偏偏在学得越多的时候，那股说服力已经渐渐减弱..

因为"懒惰"这两个字!

很坦白地说过，我真的很讨厌又懒惰又不切实际的人..

脚踏实地不好吗?

干吗非得让自己快乐却苦了身边的人..

我的天啊!只是"懒惰"都已经气了足足一整天!

真不好想象当"失败"两个字出现时我会不会疯掉...

更何况以我家的背景来看，我迟早也是会被小孩逼疯...

他们的哭声多么震撼人心...

一听见他们哭，我第一句肯定是:!@#@#!@$#$%%$^$#^%$@#$@!#@!

如果不是就会深呼吸，静静好吗?shhhh...

要是我待在家里多一天，我的脾气肯定又更上一层楼! = =

好糟糕...

我开始有"婚姻恐惧症"...

男人会说:婚姻是男人的坟墓...

那么我就会说:婚姻还是女人的另一条死路..

在婚姻里面，真正被绑死的是女人...

抛弃自己的梦想，付出自己的时间，付出自己的青春只为了一段婚姻..

更何况，家家有本难念的经!

结了婚，就不再是两个人的事，而是双方家人"两堆人"的事..

哎呀!反正我现在就是得了严重的"婚姻恐惧症"...

恐怖!!!!

M I C H A E L J A C K S O N

应和需求，今天写起华语来了....

><呵呵

不是过得但是总算过得去...

但是没有上课日子有些"惭愧"...

在家也不见得我有帮上什么忙..

下午看到一段探讨MJ人生的节目..

很明显的，人是自私的!

人家有所成就时，就拼了命要踩底人家..

很多人都告诉我:MJ好恐怖，好讨人厌，毫不理智...

唉... 人家背后的故事，你们又知道多少...

很多人也会说"娱乐界的新闻"是"一种创作"...

但是还是有90%的人仍然相信它存在...

那是为什么?因为报章杂志有说服力..

就像我看待MJ一样..

即使他的人身有再多的问题，至少他曾经做过的一切仍然有着很强烈的说服力...

他一路上走来..

从小就是个明星，收入对他而言仍是一种寄托...

当他在不自觉的情况下都还是能赚大钱，金钱对他而言已经吃去寄托能力...

跟白粉瘾者一样，第一次打一支，第二次一支已经失去效力，必须两支...

在这种情况下，挥霍变成MJ的寄托...

无论是赚钱还是亏钱的情况下他就像上了瘾一样，没办法停止...

*的确，他挥霍起来会说:这里两个都不要，其他的统统给我包起来。我还记得是古董店。贵啦!*

这是社会给他的"优惠"，让他挥霍到"负资产"还是需要尊敬他到进棺材的那刹那，甚至永远...

还是有人会问:谁叫他整容整成这副吓人的脸孔?

在他还未开始整容前，他不可能对自己样貌那么地偏见...

事实上，他也是因为一场意外才开始整容...

这又是谁的错?

而且整容还是一种"瘾"的东西...

人的思想是很复杂的，那个时代，MJ何不是第一位触碰这"东西"的人?

既然整了就要整得跟我梦想的一模一样...

既然要让全世界知道，我就要神奇地从黑变白...

或许他想的是更多更多...

每个人的思想不同，不要老是说"如果是我，我不会怎样怎样"

那样.. 只会让人陷入一种无法自拔的"痛恨状态"...

多为别人想想，别人也会留下出路给你..

做人不要太极端!刚刚好就好!

说话不要太自以为是，伤了人，还是会有报应的。

M A D N E S S m i s s i o n

Seriously... last days i was very ENJOYED!!

ENJOYED with him...

Sometimes i done fault on this type of .... ENJOY-MENTS..

I got no such things which called "MADNESS ACTIVITY" happened in my life before!

This time, i really felt it..

This is the FIRST time i go GENTING just for a cup of STARBUCKS Frapuccino!

OMG... they are seriously madness..

hahaha...

yea, tats happened on saturday... 4th July...

Actually, v are planning to have our TRANSFORMER movie on tat time..

suddenly, every cinema having fully booked..

and ... they go looked after Leisure Mall.. 12am... ticket still on sale..

but oni front seated. therefore, they decide to go Genting..

i received this madness mission, surely HAPPY...

haha..

at the moment, i still thought tat there were oni 3 of us(jordan, darl and me)...

When the time they reach my hse..

oh shit..

corrolla! ah fong aso..

= =

im not hate him... but just a little bit weird as how come he appear at the time he gonan become a sleeping beauty... @@

So v started our journey around 11.45pm.. reach there almost 12.30am.. (more than that i think)

Wow... tat moment i reach oni i realize, This world was still lots of madness ppl!

They all going there to have a cup of STARBUCKS COFFEE...

same target... so... the palce was fulled..

p/s: seldom think bout tis problem, how come population in KL growth faster and faster without controlling.. where aso will full with ppl.. CAR aso same!!

And den sit there, me n jordan oni sit there heard those 2 stupid fellar talking bout zzzz their past!

i still remember wat they orders...

jordan = mocha ice blended

Fong = Chocolate ice blended

us = Java chips Frapucinno.

hahaha..

i love my java chips but not Fong's choco ice blended...

i think he aso 1st time having it...

its too sweet and... the taste not really nice *weird*... XD

Forget to say bout how we went UP gengting heights!

Surely, the driver would be JORDAN...

he is a experienced driver.. so everyone felt SAFETY... sorry to say him old.. XD

hmmm..

he drove his KENARI...

wth! fast speed makes me felt very very HIGH! hahah..

everytime when reach corner, JORDAN breaks it till i HEARD SOME SOUND..

felt sad and sorry to the car...

omg... heavy us bring the car more problem in those corner i think...

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dono why, they seldom talk in the car...

when v reach the half of genting, felt tat kind of COLD... oni they started to be semangat.. haha

While sitting over there... felt cold like *shit*...

sucks!

Down KL was having 30 degree celcius temperature which damn hot...

Up Genting is cold like inside the refrigerator!@@

Luckily, i wears long pants with my jacket.. XD

However, while we back, Jordan aso tired.. so drived slowly when Down with many corners..

after reaching the highway path to Cheras, Jordan rush like hell.. *he was too tired*

V reach home aso 3am ady...

He rush as fast as he can aso need almost 1hours 15 mins..

haha.. but its enjoyable...

i loves tat feel very much..

should thx them so much!

n e g a t i v e l y

i think its time to have my relaxation...

since everything are given me pressure at EVERY MOMENT...

i would like to stop breathing for 1 minute when i felt those pressure...

As i noe.. my future would me more complicated and hard than others..

cause i'm keep changing my attitude...

not really positive changing, but NEGATIVELY CHANGING...

i felt that how well a woman made both of their family, works and loves balanced in a good manners are really need a long path of effort...

i don't know what's happening to me...

p/s: perhaps i knew bout it, but i wouldn't like to face it..

When i was alone in the bus, i thought bout my future..

i can't imagined that IF my future matters are not successfull at all but FAILURE, WHAT WOULD I DO?

FAILURE in marriage, FAILURE in works, FAILURE in family relationship...

Will i become madness??

Yea, i know it is definitely negative thinking...

but who knows that won't happened?

i fears bout it...

i need try to stopped it as soon as possible...

Mayb now still not the time for me to think those FUTURE problems..

but... my mind.. getting worst on this kind of question...

It is helpless for me to look at my face and said : wow, u r pretty!

Nothing confident is come by the things called "LIE"!!

sigh...

p/s: recently i get stress without any problems.. perhaps PRESSURE is the killer... ARRRR!!

Today saw the notice informed that the result for last semester would be released on 080709..

This is parts of good for me and parts of bad...

Well, good for me cause i'm ready to faced it...

bad for me cause i scare that i couldn't handle my own emotion when gets failed..

i think CONFIDENT is time to growth..

i done my assignment well and my results would be influenced to be..... ABSOLUTELY DISTINCTION...

p/s: this i'm not lying.. i really push up higher effort on it...

zzz.. k k, i will not going to think TOO positively which might made upset to me later...

lets wait 080709... my results released, mayb my part of pressure will be released too..

m o o d y . . .

This few days, i'm kept thinking about my future...

Since i'm late to touch on the reality society...

Now oni i knew that, there are something that i couldn't predict in all kinds of matter...

Look at the simple one, about family...

what did i done for my family now?

yea, i do nothing as well..

Look into Works...

Did i able to handle either company works?

i couln't...

Look into Love...

Did he really treat me good as he can?

i don't think so...

How about myself?

i'm just kept playing recently..

by doing nothing...

Moody...

NORMALLY, i should be a very friendly and kind people...

BUT now i'm not... perhaps only infront of "most" peoples...

NORMALLY, i should concentrate on the work i need to do such as dad company's accounting..

BUT i got doing nothing again!

What the hell i'm doing NOW?!

Is it influence by the nearest person?

Or every individual might have their changes aroudn this age?

sigh...

There is a word: "TIRED" appear in my mind at this moment...

i can't able to do anything with fighting my future targets, my dreams...

I'm keep changing, i know...

I need to changed, i know...

I would like to changed, i think...

Wish so much that he will getting MATURE by this job...

But not alwiz kept a heart of playfull...

sigh...