n e g a t i v e l y

i think its time to have my relaxation...

since everything are given me pressure at EVERY MOMENT...

i would like to stop breathing for 1 minute when i felt those pressure...

As i noe.. my future would me more complicated and hard than others..

cause i'm keep changing my attitude...

not really positive changing, but NEGATIVELY CHANGING...

i felt that how well a woman made both of their family, works and loves balanced in a good manners are really need a long path of effort...

i don't know what's happening to me...

p/s: perhaps i knew bout it, but i wouldn't like to face it..

When i was alone in the bus, i thought bout my future..

i can't imagined that IF my future matters are not successfull at all but FAILURE, WHAT WOULD I DO?

FAILURE in marriage, FAILURE in works, FAILURE in family relationship...

Will i become madness??

Yea, i know it is definitely negative thinking...

but who knows that won't happened?

i fears bout it...

i need try to stopped it as soon as possible...

Mayb now still not the time for me to think those FUTURE problems..

but... my mind.. getting worst on this kind of question...

It is helpless for me to look at my face and said : wow, u r pretty!

Nothing confident is come by the things called "LIE"!!

sigh...

p/s: recently i get stress without any problems.. perhaps PRESSURE is the killer... ARRRR!!

Today saw the notice informed that the result for last semester would be released on 080709..

This is parts of good for me and parts of bad...

Well, good for me cause i'm ready to faced it...

bad for me cause i scare that i couldn't handle my own emotion when gets failed..

i think CONFIDENT is time to growth..

i done my assignment well and my results would be influenced to be..... ABSOLUTELY DISTINCTION...

p/s: this i'm not lying.. i really push up higher effort on it...

zzz.. k k, i will not going to think TOO positively which might made upset to me later...

lets wait 080709... my results released, mayb my part of pressure will be released too..