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So sorry with it... i'm really not thinking well with my EQ to say out those words..

Finally, this is the second time in this week that i really ARGUE with my mum...

Actually, i noe what did she thinking bout...

When i told her, i gonna have a trip with his family..

She immediately reaction is NO!!..

i heard what she told me for her reasons..

those are very very outdated reasons...

"did u oredy married with him? what else did u need to follow him to everywhere?"

"i got money aso din get for play... aso cant have chance to play... if u think u can handle all ur money, go ahead.."

That is what makes my tears continue dropping with those words which for fight...

Actually, i noe what shes mind thinking..

she dun like me to be too close with him...

indeed, tradisionally v are not get married yet...

den, would be his lazy actions makes her very very dissapointed...

well... she is a very tradisionally woman... this is influence by the family around which is really tradisionally outdated mind...

They cant even noe what does a youth gonna try with?

They cant even try to understand with the youth needs?

why?!

why it should be like that?

Finally i found tat...

start from the day they scolding with bad words for "him" as the point...

my pressure coming harder...

HE try to make my mind updated and push me off with scolding back my family...

this is another pressure...

both this pressure makes me suffer about 5 months...

They are crazy with pushing me into the fire range...

i'm getting crazy too...

Continue like this, i cant concentrate my study..

i cant concern on what i should done...

i cant concern in what should i do with...

my mind cant stop thinking with think ways to solved that...

sigh...

please.. dun continues with this...

i just want a normal thinking, i just wan my normal family with him..

why?! why should u all do tat with me?! 

badly pressure, get loss from my body..

fuck off... 

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