Mickey Smiles

It's been awhile, my long lost story book =)

People always say, when rain passed, there will somewhere rainbow. 

Worst to the worst, the next day still the sun will come up. 

I would like to share that, I did really feel better. (=

Like no one is gotta disturb my positivity, at this moment.

Maybe, people need some surprises, some warmth, some sadness, some sweeteners to actually makes life taste better and better. 

Once in awhile, he come to my mind. 

The smile was so specially nice to me indeed.

Just like a happy Mickey. 

Somehow, I hide it in my drawer. 

I understand the impossibility, I know that won't happen again, even we have a chance. 

Like the flowers left the tree. 

Sometime, imagination come to me. 

I found it will too sweets, CANDY CRUSH! 

IF and ONLY IF, when things happen to make us walk in a line. 

Parallel, similar to that. 

I seeing him living life good, and he seeing me getting life better.

We both are trustworthy.

Whatever stated in the Deal Agreement, for the last sentence we have, "Breach of Contract", we never forget and we proceed until now.

We hide, oh no, perhaps just ME. 

And it is so difficult when it comes so strong to my thought. 

I thought we were....... I thought we can...... I thought we have........

But people are always different physically, different in mind, even different in action. 

When you took the action to right, but someone took theirs to left, you doubt, you hesitate... 

Just like what choice we made, we doubt, so we turn to the other one. 

So on, I will be taking my steps further, without looking back to the past. 

=')

We are brilliants, don't waste your time to something not worth! 

("=

Drive Safe

The day once I touched down to Malaysia Airport, I found that my friend has committed into hospital after a serious accident. 

Blessing that, he still able to drop us a message, telling us that he was injured. 

The picture that he sent us, shown that he did involved in a very serious accident. 

Thanks god, he is fine to move and talk. 

Since last Sunday, I yet to have a chance to visit him in the hospital. 

After the company trip, continuously with the separation of a beloved colleague and then my cousin's beautiful and meaningful wedding. 

Running out of energy after all that.

And I have been "Mentally and Physically Shut Down" for more than 12 hours on Monday. 

So, today, there's a chance whereby I able to visit him out. 

The 1st sight, I was shocked. 

HELL YEA, how slim he was before this accident, after that, how can him be so chubby. 

His face was swollen, left eyes with scars and right eyes with big bruce. 

The 2nd sight, I was sad.

He don't really look like him anymore, temporary I guess. 

The 3rd sight, thanks god, he is moving, and smiling. 

As the longer I know him, the more I know about him. 

HE is a guy that will always preparing himself to be looking good in front of everyone. 

His face is the body part that he loves the most.

We might think that he will be quite sad when he look into mirror right now. 

Of cause, doctors will help him up, and he won't be forever looks like this. 

Then, he started to tell us his story. 

It was a bit horror, because he said when he almost reach home, he looked at the flat that not suppose to have people at that hour, were all drying clothes out the corridor. 

After that scene, he "bang" the wall, and he got fainted. 

Don't know at which blur moment, he woke and called his friends, telling them he was in an accident. 

His friends after that told him, when they arrived, they saw him climbing out from the passenger side door, and walk opposite to the road to the friends car. 

However, at that moment, there was a lot of people standing there. 

But surprisingly there are nobody lending a hand to him, or contact ambulance and police. 

This already a very sad phase, then he told us, friends told him, there are 6-7 peoples of MAT REMPIT was picking his cash, bags, wallets and watches. 

Guys, how bad can this world is? 

How cruel can people be? 

I can't imagine that how those people standing there just to look at how's the accident, but don't care about how will the driver be.

It's a life.

A living things.

Really speechless to this cruel world. 

.....

However, there was a lesson my friend learnt, and he did started to warn others:

Please wear your car seat belt whenever you entered your car before you start driving.

"I was so regrets that I did not wear seat belt always, causing me such a heavy injury. The Airbag would not help if you does not wear a seat belt, they are safety tools, please use it. 

I feel so pain whenever I talk, I drink, and I can't even eat now."

HE said.

To all dear drivers, 

Please do your part to secure your own life before anybody come and show you how cruel they are. 

Do your safety part, before you start your journey. 

Best regards,

Missie

Fearness and Marriage

Hi, how are you doing there? 

Time past quite fast right? Just a blink, everything reset back to zero.

I have never feel this complicated before. 

The complication is like a drug.

Because it relies on the beautiful memory, and some bitterness of the separation.

It takes me longer time to digest down the beautiful taste mixed with the bitterness. 

Hey, guess what, that day I attended my cousin's wedding, everything goes smooth and fine. 

Surprisingly, the sweetest melody playing in the hall, everyone's eyeing on the nerdy groom. 

Violin sounds specifically soft and romantic at that moment. 

Just like the whole world have stop and staring at them for quite awhile.  

Cousin's tears drop for just a reason, that called "love".

The thing I will never have in my life. 

At least for that moment, I able to claim very clearly, I might not have it, perhaps not deserves it.

Back to the beautiful romantic's scene, melody stops, the groom running to my cousin. 

Words, we know each other 11 years ago, and we coupling for 9 years, that's the most beautiful moment in my life.

Without you, I wouldn't have my life complete. Love, is you know I'm imperfect, but you still by my sides and giving me courage to improve my every step. 

I were fighting so hard to improve both of us, from we have nothing, to now, we got each other. 

I would like to prove to you that I will make it true, I will make our life beautiful, please let me hold you tide and fly up high. I love you. 

This remind me of something that I never have. 

 This remind me to think about what I really want my future to be. 

God, if you hear this, please send me some responses. 

Dear god, 

Since I was young, I were praying to be good girl in my parents heart. 

Slowly grow up, I were wish to be a kind girl in everybody's eyes. 

I know it is nearly impossible to being kind to everybody, but at least I shouldn't hurt anyone. 

Until I 1st met what the people called LOVE. 

It suppose to be beautiful.

But it will just happen when the 2 persons that in love having the common thinking and similar mindset. 

Because of LOVE, we changed for each other. 

He taught me to be not too optimistic, because bad things happen you may not able to handle it;

He taught me there are nothing  best in the world, there are merely something might good for some people some situation. 

To be smart, to be careful, to be good. 

But when LOVE slowly comes to a few years later, changes will happen. 

To be good, might not be sufficient anymore. 

We need to be better, at least for both. 

Until the day, both us agreed to live together forever.

My brain got stucked here. 

My tears dropped. 

It's because I don't deserves he do anything better to me, so he never think that it will be very important to us. 

The question he asked me back was that, why not you give me what you have, and we improve. 

Confusing and interesting.

I don't understand, since when we have different thinking, different mindset. 

God, please tell me since when. 

I just can't stop the tears. 

Kindly guide me that what should I do to really get myself back. 

I dont want to lose myself in a relationship. 

That's not the real me. 

I need courages!

But, I dont have. 

Hope that you're here god, at least you will guide me to a better solution. 

The End

这么久没回来，一回来即便不是喜事，一定会是令人心酸的事。

越是长大，越是经不起悲欢离别。 

相继地，一路走来都十分愉快的同事一个个离开了。

面对分离，我始终有种极度不舍的感觉。 

尤其是特别好的那几位。

我说人啊，怎么都那么犯贱。 

不到真的离别，也不会低头说谢谢，说对不起，说我爱你。 

或许老天就是这样地考验我们，让我们不断地成长，不断地学会勇敢。 

最近身边发生了一些让我们十分感触的事情。 

能让人感触那么深，也当然是件极为悲痛的事。

前两个星期，大嫂去参加了一位好朋友的婚礼，他们的婚礼完美而又愉悦。

随后，他们便到马尔代夫度蜜月去了。

第一天，他们甜蜜地展开了旅程。这个地方是女孩非常期待着要去的地方。 

男孩为了实现女孩的梦想，不断努力地工作。

终于他们来到了梦想的地方。 

可是天意弄人，在一天的浮潜中，男孩要女孩在船上等着，他就随大家下海去了。

谁知道，浮潜完毕后，所有人都回到船上，仅剩男孩一人还未上来。

女孩才急了的找老公，怎么没上船。

这下才发现男孩溺毙了。

船上刚好有医生护士，可是一切都来不及了。

怎么的？才刚刚喜结连理，这么快就让一切成灰。

我说我们听者都觉得心酸，能怎么让女孩不痛心，不难过，不放弃自己呢？

我说老天跟他们开了一个很大的玩笑。

在一起九年后的他们仍幸福地结婚，可却在几分钟带走了甜蜜的回忆。

要是发生在我身上，我可真不知道该怎么面对。 

在我梦想要到的地方，老天带走了我一生的幸福。

叫我怎么能原谅自己？

我想当下的我一定也想寻死去的。

可是人生还漫长，老天带走了他必定有它的苦衷。

而留下了我，也一定有它的原因。

有时候，难过真的会让人生不如死。可是学会跟难过共处，学会跟悲伤起舞，学会跟回忆交流，我想才会真正让人学会更努力生活。

在天堂的他，一定无时无刻都守护着她。 爱，永远都在。

就像即将离别的我们，我会永远守着承诺，活得比以前更好，无时无刻地守护他，悼念着我们的美丽回忆。

谢谢你。=）

I'm back with Coffee =)

Hi, all of my long lost readers. 

It takes lots of time to get back into network lately.

Its been too busy about work, yea, audit work. 

Such headache, such hurtful, and nothing is going to happen about appreciation. 

No matter what, I'm still going to be blessing to what I having right now. 

For the last few months, I have been confusing about what should I really want to be. 

My words always did say: "be bless, be frank and be the one who I respect the most".

But it might not to applied to every situation, everyone. 

Varies situation to different people defined in different way. 

Using the same way to alls are actually hurting somebody, sometimes.

After all, things will getting worst. 

So, my new lesson in my life, is to be more flexible and learnt to be more independent in my own. 

At least my mindset should be in the right way. 

=) 

Have to thanks a best friend. 

Everytime after a long talks with her, I will always discovered something. 

Maybe, that is what we called "friends". 

And there's where I belongs to. 

Dated her for a coffee session, a nice place to chills. 

*specially thanks alot to my colleague which is a coffee maniac too*

I like the place, I like the Coffee, and I like the peoples. 

Thanks alot for giving me hope and found me back =)

感触

人与人之间，总有许多感触。

爱恨交替间，也夾杂了许多情绪。

小时候，视成为好人作目标；长大后发现，天真也是创造出美丽人生秘诀。

人生的每一个转折点，都有值得回顾的好地方。

流泪的转折点，既是变得更坚强阶段。不害怕，不气馁，不逃避，面对了总不会让你吃亏。

又或是，换句话说，咋们吃亏当吃补，不好的当历练，好的当回忆。

欢笑的转折点，既是让人学会怎么在快乐中收敛。

欢笑没有尺度，但人与人也有些限度。

懂得收敛的人，知道为自己制造快乐，也知道让人快活。 

这人生啊，不会只是物质，人本身也还有感触与想法，懂得运用得恰当，生活也将随之精彩。

Exhausting

Sometimes... it's good to have some bad memories.

They remind us that we don's deserve something better in life. 

They lead us to the right way as we should never get back to the same mistake. 

Everytime, anyone approached, I'm fear, I wish I could just runaway from that situation, and never let it happen. 

Libra, have a very indecisive mind.

Ya, true, I'm always contradicting. 

About good or bad, want or don't want, keep going or let go. 

I can be so sure that I'm a optimism's people, but not when alone. 

It was like, yea, I really did felt that I'm exhausting. 

Exhausting in forgiving so much, forgetting so much. 

Exhausting in constantly sacrificing.

I'm so tired. 

Can anybody please tell me, what is my final prize? 

What can I get from constantly forgetting and constantly sacrificing? 

OK, like I always say "God will never forget the person who willing to wait, who staying until the end".

They wait for a prize, but whose know wait itself is a price. 

Tik tok.... Time is the real horror killer. 

They kills our health, our happiness and our heart. 

Everytime I think about forgiving and go on, I must have once turn around and look at my past. 

That's really a ugly past. 

Like my back. 

Scars on it, they never leave, exactly like the ugly past. 

It's in me, but nobody ever seen. 

The nearest who seen it, has never really put his hand on, and feel it. 

Reminding myself that, "it'll be alright, don't care about it, forget about that".

But can I have someone to tell me, what should you do when your closest one telling you, you are just a rubbish?

Should you really take it, swallow it and forgiving? 

Or should you slap them and kick their ass before they have chance to say sorry? 

I remembered someone told me, "a rubbish used in the right place with someone really appreciating it, it will turns out as a valuable priceless gift".

Why he didn't tell me, what is the consequences that the rubbish been tears everywhere, everyone stepped on it, and that's nothing to be appreciates?

Why a 7 years communication doesn't come to same way of thinking? 

I just couldn't take it. 

This is too hurt for me. 

At least, for me that really feel so tired about all these. 

This is like the end of the story, where I telling the world I'm leaving.

My heart still asking me to stay. 

We can predict what happpening next, but why nobody want to show up for a decision. 

Agree with me, I just getting too tired. 

Read along this, and the story have not end yet. 

眼里的风景

＂时间，不能重来。
回忆，不会更改。
痛彻心扉的，未必为最痛；
快乐美满的，未必为最好。＂

工作忙累了，一个人坐在岗位上喘气，的确，那是无奈而又木纳的。
这时候，回忆不经意地流动了起来。
一幕幕，一席席，就像是一段微电影。
原来，曾经我那么地幸福过。
原来，曾经我也年少轻狂过。
原来，我不是如此，我还有好多好多。
人生中，有太多值得回忆的感动；
有太多比成就感更有价值的旅途。
无论是痛的，伤的，冷的，热的，执着的，无奈的，它们都是价值不菲的成就。

我人生中最大的成就，就是做了些连我自己都倍感讶异的大小事。
错的，对的，好的，坏的。
一路上不断得到爱护，支持，直到跌倒了，学会勇敢而又乐观地爬起来。
在每一个跌倒的人身边伸一伸援手，
说了那么多，其实我想说，我的成就就是现在的我。

原来，我看似不曾拥有一片云彩，可我心里却已经有着一幅很漂亮的风景。
我希望身边的所有人也可以跟我一样，找到自己心里那一幅幅漂亮的风景。
不记恨，不忘本；不炫耀，不躁急。
我还有更多需要学习的美丽。
希望哪天，我们再遇见，我可以从你眼里看出一幅美丽而又壮观的风景:)

Quality and quantity

Sitting down in a coffee shop which previously doesn't have successful franchises like this, and now it is obviously transforming to be a "chain stores".
Like what I see now, there are lots if cake "stocking in".
They are specialist in variety of cakes especially cheese cake.
Once I see they are bulky stocking in, I might already have a sub conscious that telling me, they will definitely doesn't taste good.
Lets say, billions people in the world, and half of them did thought like me. What will happened?

Indeed, they are not avoiding to have desserts here, but it will definitely desire for more specific state.
Like what, quantity and quality couldn't in a line. They just hardly be an equation.
I like coffee, but u want specific coffee sellers.
I like bread, I prefer stores that specialise in breads but not a cake house that selling bread.
Diversification in business built increasing short term monetary terms.
But, it will lose their long term conscious inceptions to customers.
That's how business in my eye.

Focus, is to specialise for a long term conscious and trusts.
Aren't for the "now-seen-money".
I really have that idea to sustain and focus what I am now. Quality is not equals to quantity.

Spinner Stops

I always mentioned about dream.
The fortunes that we only able to touch whenever we close our eyes.
Every time, when sadness hit my mind, the first thought come to me, will always be the way that I doesn't like to, think about.
If everyone have watched a movie called "Inception", have you felt the same as them?
I did.
Whenever you want your all day dreams to be true, you will try to put on inception, and you may go on your life in the dream world.
What if, you been in the dream world, you spin the spinner, and it doesn't stop.
I definitely afraid of spinning that.
Because I'm not like the movie's story, I may need to awake from my dream.
The spinner, no matter how hard I tried, it may still stop spinning.

Yea, world is just so true like this.
When you want something badly, you won't get them.
When you find yourself not expecting anything else, there must have some surprise in spite of all things/problems.
I took too long refuse to awake.
And now the spinner stops.
I look at you, you look at me.
We couldn't say a word about us.
What we left, is just a dream live deep inside our head our heart.
Although I just want you to be true...

＜忙碌＞

时间，匆匆地过去...
岁月，渐渐地流逝...
没说错，我是指，时间匆匆地过，岁月也跟随后头，没有任何讯息地溜走。
人生不过短短几十年，一溜，一眨眼，再回神，我们失去的不只是青春，我们也都失去了做人的基本原则。
总常听见老人家哀叹着年轻人们的恶劣态度，然而把这归究于现代社会教育的问题。
说实在的，大家也都从成长中走过来。
一路走来的感受，想法，统统都可以不问而知。
那就该说这非全然教育问题；百分九的都是因为个体的思考方式。

自工作以来，从来没好好叹口气的日子，让人热衷于追逐梦想，而忘掉很多为人处事的基本原则。
尊重，乐观，知足，快乐，在无形中渐渐消失了。
你说，他们脑袋瓜里装的不过就是一堆堆所谓的＂知识＂，除了善用于工作，那一切都与生活毫无联系。
而生活，也就变成了追逐梦想的辅助品。
所以，忙碌的大家也都筑起了高高的围墙。
别人没办法进来，自己也没办法放开。

这，当然不健康的说。
当人没了灵魂，剩下的也就不过是个不值一提的躯壳。
除了被＂热卖＂，＂利用＂，＂推挤＂，它的专属地段，依旧不过是过眼云烟。
对我而言，忙碌，就像是一种腐蚀力很强的毒药。
人一旦碰上了，他将腐蚀你的灵魂，让你忘了自由，忘了传统，也忘了自己。
在这短短人生中，能寻找到属于自己该有的忙碌，那才是通往成功的高速公路。
我，在遗失自己的时候，发现了＜忙碌＞表面给的谎言，我感激不尽。
将用尽全力，学会好好地忙碌，而不是盲目的忙碌。 ：）加油大家！

Breakthrough

Its been long long long ago~

Where am I?

I were lost... 

Should I say, again? 

Yea, of cause. 

That's been too much coming to my head until I couldn't breath, I couldn't move freely, I couldn't even smile happily. 

That's too heavy for me.

At least, now, I'm not ready yet for the future that people are looking forward. 

Seriously, I like to be alone. 

Doing things alone, drinking a cup of coffee alone, sitting infront of my lappie alone. 

After a long long busy days, I did really realise that I need my own space the most. 

I can give up everything for everyone that I really thought that it should be my everything. 

But, I guess I am wrong. 

It was so so wrong. 

That makes me even pressure than the other day, when I was just a kid to handle an adult's matter.

In conclusion, I'm so lost afterall. 

Really don't know who to talk to. 

The one nearest to me, may never lend me a hand when I really fell down. 

Everything just goes so bad, and worst. 

What to do? 

That's what we called life. 

In anyway, I'm just trying to.... take a break. 

I need my own fresh air. 

I need a pair of clear ears, to listen to the melodies and musics that I was passionate in depth. 

I need a pair of optimistic eyes, to be my best lens best camera, captured down all the beautiful moment.

I need my optimistic mind to give out a right signals to my body to actually stay healthy. 

I really know...

What I lose today, I may never get back in future. 

Unfortunately, I'm not a genius like you, you, you, and you.... 

I need spaces to breath.

I need my own spaces to dance.

I need my own spaces to raise my voice and sing. 

I did too much because of you.

I did too much just to makes people happy.

In the end, what am I, I never know. 

Negativity, is a fatal chronic disease. Once you infected a little of it, you will be losing your whole happy life.  

I forget the basic role I have in my mind, in my soul. 

What I left now, is an empty heart, blind eyes, cracked ears and a destroyed body. 

I really need my own space. 

I need freedom. 

I need more.

Somemore.

Beautiful Saturday

Life can be so beautiful, when it is so relax like now..

Like today...

Eat, jokes, and make fun with all things we did.

We are all so close yet so far. 

Everyone have their own faces in them. 

They will have hide some faces in some circumstances, and force to show up in other circumstances.

Today, I did something that makes myself so relax.

Instead of whole day long facing the squaredy thing, I did chit chatting with someone that I don't use to talk to.

Like long time ago I already willing to find 'em have a talk.

But always din't have enough courage to do so.

Today, I put on effort, state some hi to them.

And we starts some normal conversation.

It's maybe like I'm weird.

But guess what, this time I really calm down alot to talk to 'em.

Maybe once a while I did really miss the one, thus, I really used to cherish the chance to have conversation now. 

That's so soft, and very beautiful.

Both them agreed that I had changed. 

She say I became so much softer. 

Seriously, I have to say...

I discovered I have look through so many things. 

A lot of things that I always care of, have been put aside. 

And now, I'm more concern on assisting and happiness.

Help up people to have their happiness.

At least this is my 2013 aim. =)

Happy Saturday they have, Happy aheads..

=)

Small town or City

A small town and a city... 

Whichever you prefer, it would indicate what you need the most.

At this moment, I have no choice and being in a small town.

That's a very good way for me to experience some small town lifestyles. 

Like everyone would have asked me, where are you come from?

I will definitely answer Kay Elle..

There's my hometown my dad & mom's hometown. 

I'm a City's baby, came from a small state, but still, it is in City.

I never seen and feel life in a small town/village.

Last time went to Ipoh was for the interim job, and that's a bit rushing up.

Thus, we have not much time to feel the environment and the enjoy the peaceful place.

This time, I did restored my memory, cleared and clean.

Now, its time to heartly feel everything here. 

Even though we didn't get things done smoothly, but at least we learnt from it.

Every morning, once I open my eyes, look through the windows.

I almost give a WOW! to the beautiful scene.

I never know 7am will still have this beautiful sunrise scene. 

Every morning will be blessing that I have this gorgeous morning making up my day.

And then, due to some miss-communications with the business processing accountant staff, we all were not willing to go back to their office. 

However, we did find a good place to work on. 

We did chosen to work in the estate which is the HQ.

It's located far from Ipoh town, it takes about 45 mins to reach.

I think, this would be the better way for us to work. 

At least, we wont have too pressure and screwed up by the staff's attitude.

Seriously, I really know what' causing that, we will take chance to learn.

But they straightforward to us, it is a bit hard to accept. 

Perhaps, we have to understand this is what we called life.

Anyway, still blessing that they challenge us, and let us have chance to experience to work in the estate's office for longer time.

At the same time, I seen what is worth to learnt. 

Everyday passed by the way to the estate, I seen a lot of "simple houses".

They are all looks like my granddy home in Setapak. 

But surrounded there are all palm trees and coconut trees. 

Nothing much...

Even they have some small stalls, and restaurants...

I still found difficulties in try to think to living in it. 

My mind was like, living in the small village that will never have demands, where can we find motivations to improve.

This is the 1st thing I thought of.

The 2nd thing is, whereby I need a long rest, but to living in a quiet place, it makes up loneliness for me.

Maybe Libraians are all kind of people that like to be in crowd and people.

So, I found 2 reasons for why I not gotta choose to live in this small town/village.

Indeed, I found 1 good point to convince me to stay here.

There're nice foods here.

Hahahaha!

Being a fat ass doesn't matter, but being a fat ass that didn't know what taste is really tasty, that's worst.

So I used to try out all the recommended foods here.

Especially the one that the senior manager brought me to. 

The very old coffee shop, which looks like not good hygiene.

But the food taste fantastically nice. 

Guess what, this is really nice even there're not highly demanding.

This is the best food I have tasted in... well, forget to say, its located in Tanjung Tualang.

A place which is nearby estates. 

Anyway, back to the point.

The senior manager highly recommended their "crunchy pork fries" on our last job trip. 

And this time we swear must have a chance to have it at least once. 

Hahaha, however, we went for 3rd times up to today. 

XD

Crazily falls on their Kopi and all kind of foods.

The way they cook the foods are a bit different, but of cause, I cannot prefessionally tells what's the different here.

Taste it if you want to know.

Oooopsss.. Too bad, that kopithiam name i forgotten. 

Will post up next time when I noticed that. 

I guess, we will go for another time soon yea. 

So hell yea, eyes getting smaller after telling this much stories in Ipoh.

Hope that I would have time to blog out more regarding to this trip within these few days.

Because, I know readers were all ready to know what's going on with us. 

Yay, happy sleeping Friday night. 

Goodnight dear all.

New in Me

Here comes a brand new year...

Hereby ended the beautiful 2012...

For few weeks ago, I intended to write a blog for my achievement in the whole 2012, and the latest rule and mission for my brand new 2013. 

It really takes time to thought about it, and wrote it as a MUST.

Hence, I keep delaying the writing day, up to today.

Honestly, I being so lazy lately. 

Perhaps, having too hard pressure in my career or too much jobs to busy on. 

Like I were working on heavy construction work, bones getting tider and tider. Cracks sounds always. 

For my 2012, it is seriously a very meaningful year for me.

A lot of changes and chances given during the year. 

I knew what cause me so beautiful, I knew what cause me so darkness in some faces. 

I learnt a lot of things in 2012, instead of merely look at the clock, tik tok tik tok... counting on somebody appear to bring me out of my circle, I walked out from where I belongs to, head to another state that people used to be like. 

As my parents, I knew how much they love me, how much they did just to protect their lil princess, like me. 

This lil princess, was so intends to love them in a different way. 

She requested to walk out from the castle, learn to be tough be strong and being alone. 

Without the family's helping hands, she did her best to communicate with people that she don't used to talk to and like everyone who appreciates her, and love everyone who cherish her alot. 

Until the day, the lil princess met a group of friends that used to shares their experiences and stories with her. 

She found that she has made a right decision. 

She found something that she couldn't find in the castle with merely her family. 

These friends, are hers colleagues. 

A group of seniors that may always lend their helping hands, sharing some happy jokes. 

They are really so interesting. 

They make her life much more interesting. 

This is how she does starts to colouring her life. 

Once a while, she will get stuck, and got screwed up. 

Perhaps, in work, in communicating or in expressing.

But, she never give up. 

She always tell herself: 

"Good things will not always come to us, bad things comes is to show us how appreciable are the good things deserved" ;

"Our own happiness may not just come from ourselves. By sharing our heart to others, by helping up the others to have their happiness, that will then be our biggest happiness" ;

"Be patient always, good things will always left for the one that willing to wait" ;

"Life isn't a straight line, it is a beautiful curve that goes freely up and down, access to some pain, some cures, no one can ever state which way it should be. But, a beautiful life is how we paint our life" ;

"The best people in da world, will not be the best suitable to us; but the one that best suitable to us, will be the one makes us the best in da world" ;

"Mistakes, we need them to improve to grow up. Don't afraid of it, every mistake take a lesson" ;

There are still a lot more ideas scrolling in my mind. 

They just a bit messy whenever I wants to blog it out. 

But if have chance, I will share all of it in the social medias. 

I want to ensure that, everyone around me were all happily living their own life. 

No matter what, being optimistic is the key to be better. 

WE ALL DESERVE A BETTER US. 

Well, here comes what's my mission in 2013...

Hmmp... still, mind so messy (like my name) :x

"Just sustain my optimistic, help up more friends and families surrounded me, share them happiness, be with them whenever they need us" ;

"Colour up my life with more and more beautiful colours, love and sincerity".

To the one I love the most, hope you will happy with me always. 

No matter how far we are, we will always in one. 

Never give up each others. =)